January 11th

had a bad day today

i left a bunch of plushies at the old place and its been hitting me how much i miss them ive been sleeping so poorly lately

such a silly thing to be so upset over i know but like,,, it just really hits how i can never go back and those plushies meant a lot to me they got me through some dark times

hormones have me feeling sad more which i really like better, i used to get more angry when i was upset and now though i still never really cry its more of a sadness and i dunno,, i just prefer it to that wanting to punch a hole in a wall feeling